mindpalette – retrospection

mindpalette – retrospection

mindpalette wondered why it is so exited

It searched for the exact reasons for its overwhelmed excitement. It tried looking towards - it ’self’.

In between the different shades, it found a strange shade of mind.

A neatly suppressed, strange shade…….

mindpalette realised that it was suppressing its desires in order to comply its projected image in the university.

The more it suppressed, it became more pervert and highly complicated.

It was working with young, beautiful girls.

It suppressed all its desires by repeatedly telling to its self that it was a teacher.

mindpalette always acted different to create and pamper an image for itself.

It created the false self image right from its childhood.

mindpalette used to stand in front of the mirror,
and saw a creepy thin reflection which made itself wondering how it is going to compete at the race called life.

The reflection,
and the inability to satisfy the social and family expectations forced it to create an illusionary projected image of its own.

So that it’s negatives can be neatly concealed under the carpet.

Its family situations always urged and kept itself reminding about self sufficiency

(That it should stand on its leg and take care of itself).

mindpalette was in a dilemma

It should fight back to survive,
while suppressing all its shortcomings.

mindpalette decided to attain the strength to fight back.

Somehow the decision to be tough evolved out.

It realized that it should overcome the urge for care and sympathy from others as the first step to evolve as a ‘tough mindpalette’.

It was the beginning of a new fascinating concept that spread the basic shade of ………mind palette

The basic mold that created mindpalette ……………

One reason for the excitement was the urge to disown its projected image, breakfree and fly to a new dream world…..

mindpalette-turning points

mindpalette-turning points

mindpalette’s life was going through a phase of changes and smoothness.

It showed unexceptional courage in intialising activities and experimenting life.

The experiments gave it more courage to explore unknown boundaries and urge for the limits.

During this smooth flow of journey, came an e-mail which became a turning point in its life.

mindpalette never realized that it was the beginning of new experiences in its journey called ‘life’.

It was from an old classmate.
mindpalette had some nice memories associated with her while in the big city.

But projected ego and image at the city life never allowed it to open its mind.

Later, when it decided to run away from the city it left all bonds and memories back and never tried to refresh any of those haunting memories.

mindpalette felt overwhelming excitement. It was highly optimistic with the feel good fragrance all around and its confidence levels were very high.

It came to the conclusion that life is giving a new chance that it missed once.

mindpalette entertained the new developments and enjoyed blooming excitement and happiness.

She was working abroad and she managed to get a job offer for mindpalette with her.

There was a prominent change in the shades of mind.

It got exited about working abroad.
mindpalette used to join parties of its friends who used to come on annual leave from abroad (the only source for free scotch whiskey especially johnywalker).

Working abroad was always its dream.

It decided to leave its university job and follow its dream.

mindpalette justified it as-

“It is precisely the possibility of realising a dream that makes life interesting.”

(Substantive Truth: It was an urge for reunion that wove new dreams, excitement and expectations.)